Well i am home with a kidney infecion- I am falling apart. It has been a rough couple of weeks. I dont' know why I have never been good enough for my mom. I know in my head that it is not about me- it is about the family dynamics and yada yada. My heart does not see that though. My heart is hurt and sad for the rejection, yet again, and the verbal abuse that my son and I went through. I am so thankful for a heavenly father who loves me without condition or criteria.